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am 16yr old guy. lived with father all life. mum died when 2 yr old. he criminal- drug deals money lends, bought into “legit” businesses. I live in 1.5million house, i have been given a lot of expensive things live in house with marble floor swimming pool huge bedroom, from the age of 5 i used to need to do stuff for myself, look after myself, he’d leave me in alone, at 7 it was constantly learning to cook. he never had time for me, am his only child, i never got read any stories from a young age or never got time spent with. when i turned 8 i began to notice stuff. drugs fighting and violence. when i got to the age of 11 i started speaking to him about how he wasn’t interested in me and i asked him to help with homework and asked if we could do stuff together, but he couldn’t care less, had loads of arguments, he got mad and from then on he did bother with me but he would give me into trouble for being disrespectful, from age 11 he spanked me (or “leathering” as he called it),i don’t mean 5min spanking, i mean a 30 and 40 minute spanking with his belt on my bare backside with leather belt and he once used buckle when i said he was a low life who should be in jail, i wouldn’t take it back so he would use his belt until i would eventually give in, he spanked me up until about 14 about 2/3 times per week, when age 14 he stopped and would slap my face with the back/front of his hand. i have never had a good relationship with him, and when he gets angry he gets mad mad, his veins pop out his head. i once walked out the house to leave and said i would never be back at the age of 14 and i went to my friend paul’s house, he told me to get my arse over the coach for a “leatherin”, from then on i lost all my friends because my father/his hitmen went round to there houses and told the parents to stay away from me, so from then on i lost all contact with them because he is a frighting guy (he says he is “well respected”), i had to go back to live with him cause i have no one else and his abuse continued, i have family- aunts uncle etc.. but they don’t care, junkies/aliki’s just as bad. from 14 i stopped school, got home schooled. often thought about telling people how he hit me, but he used to say “if you think what you get is bad, wait till you go to home, they lock you up….”. 4month ago we had argument about me not drying shower, it ended with him draggin me into shower with clothes off and threw me into cold shower, that day when he was doin that i spat on his face out of anger and he gave me black eye and locked grabbed me by kneck and threw me in a freezin cold under the stairs press with no clothes on soaking wet with black eye and cut lip from 11am to just after 10pm. am not a disrespectful person, i showed people respect, only person i don’t show respect is him because he never showed me it, at first i did but afterwards i didn’t. he doesn;t mean anything to me. my main question is what do i do? i still live with him, i got no money and he wants to control me and me livin with him suits him cause he is control freak. he is pyscho, there was a guy round at our house the other day buzzing the intercom, my father threatened his family because he owes him money, the guy had a tragic accident- he is now paralysed for life, can’t speak, spinal damage. My father would have had something to do with it. he makes me feel sick. i don’t no what to do. he would never hurt me in a way which would do any lasting damage, but anyone else who crosses him either ends up dead, broken arms/legs or something else. i stopped private tutor, i need to clean house 5 bedrooms 6 bathrooms and clean cars on daily basis as he wants me doing something or he’ll get mad. i have seen him with one of his thug friends handing him a gun or gas canister gun as they were saying.

what do i do?

i cant just walk away from him?

am not a grass, so i don’t want to grass him to police.

what do i do?

my life has been hell, i got no friends, no social skills cause i been in house for ages, spend my days cleaning house and using the gym in house to keep fit and the night on computer and readin/tv. its like living in prison. even if i go walk, we live in area where the houses are a good distance apart, the houses have gates on them and its like open countryside.